APRIL O APRIL

April has been a crazy month for me. It's a grueling battle between me and well, me. I had to make the hardest decision for my future without any help from others, though I've asked for help and advice but in the end it was just me, myself and I.  I was stuck between two possibilities, two opportunities regarding my future career (yes, it's actually about my job). Should I brag about every single detail here? Oh yes I should.


September last year, I was officially graduated. My dream job has always been an employee in an oil and gas company. I don't know why but working in oil industry always seems so god damn cool to me. What is so cool about it? Well, the big salary is. Money talks super loud these days :p. However, an opportunity to work in such company is so hard to get, it's just hard for a fresh grad to be hired. So I decided to lower my expectation. I started to apply to many other places too beside the oil companies. To cut the story short, I was accepted in a bank, the process was so fast that I had to decide whether to accept or not within a couple of days. It was a management trainee position. A very good deal. It's a fast track career path. The agreement was: I got to learn everything about banking industry from A-Z within 8-month period of in-class training, then I will be placed in a strategic position for two years.


To cut the story even shorter, on the 4th month of my training, I got an offer from an oil company where I used to work as an undergraduate intern. The HR called me and offered me a 6-month contract. Though it's still tentative whether they will hire me permanently or not after the sixth month, I was startled. It's like god has answered all my prayers. But you see the dilemma here, If I choose to stay in the bank, I can be a successful banker in the next 5 years, and after 4 years my salary will be equal with the salary offered by the oil company. I don't need to worry about the continuance of my career since it is set to be long-term. If i choose to pursue my dream job in oil company, I will get twice amount of my monthly income in the bank. But then my fate in the next six month will be very uncertain.


So that's the deal basically. I've picked the second option as you can see in my profile. But up until today, I'm still scared about the outcome of my decision. I hope I'm doing the right thing. Let's just see what's going to happen on October. *fingerscrossed